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im 21 years old and I love the show Elfen lied. If you need help just speek to me ill do the best i can oh it does not matter if your on my friend list i will still help you out mad d

I felt it was time to add some new things on this and thus i write this now and to those who read it well i hope you enjoy it.

Date 1/10/2011
My life has change since the start of my first year on gaia events has shape me to the person i am today and those events have almost gotten me killed but that's how life is isn't it. A world that we truly will never understand and yet i play this deadly game of which I'm not allow to say. I still will help those but understand if i help i will one day ask for your help and thus what you start I shall end it. 20 years of my life and i look back at it and nodded my head those years were good to me but in the middle of it all it was hell lets hope the next 20 will be better. Next update will be in 20years until then enjoy











All the things that are down here are Quiz that i have tooken on the first try this is the ture me. If you dont like tought but i would love for you guys to leave a coment on it.


Your element is Rain: Sad, lonely, distant and unique. You are quite distant from emotion and people, but you have been made this way by one thing or another. You are truly unique yet fail to see it and are quite creative be it in art, music, writing, ect.. You used to let people in now you don't even bother to try, having been hurt so many times in the past. Your attitude is that you don't need anyone but yourself, people are just trouble waiting to happen. But you really do want to trust someone no matter if you see it or not, deep down your waiting for someone to come and set you free. This kind of depression can turn dangerous, don't let them get to you. Not everyone in the world will hurt you. Humans are humans and are not perfect. So most likely sooner or later you'll meet someone who feels like you do and perhaps your shell will eventually disappear.

Your Deadly Sins


Envy: 40%

Lust: 20%

Pride: 20%

Sloth: 20%

Gluttony: 0%

Greed: 0%

Wrath: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14%

You will die a boring death. While dying, you will be jealous of those who die dramatic deaths.


Your wise quote is: "Be kind to unkind people, they probably need it the most" by Ashleigh Brilliant.
You try to look beyond apperance, try to give people second chances and are probably very kind. Understanding is your biggest personality trait, and thoose you can see through should be grateful. If they aren't already. You detest narrow minded people, because they can't see what's really there. Facades is not your thing and you strive to always be who you really are.

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You are a Samurai.
You are full of honour and value respect. You are not really the stereotypical hero, but you do fight for good. Just in your own way. For you, it is most certainly okay to kill an evil person, if it is for justice and peace. You also don't belive in mourning all the time and think that once you've hit a bad stage in life you just have to get up again. It's pointless to concentrate on emotional pain and better to just get on with everything. You also are a down to earth type of person and think before you act. Impulsive people may annoy you somewhat.

Main weapon: Sword
Quote:"Always do the right thing. This will gratify some people and astonish the rest" -Mark Twain
Facial expression: Small smile

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~*~Result nr 12~*~

Your power is: The ability to breathe under water
Explanation: When swimming, you don't need to get up and take a new fresh breath since you take in oxygen from the water. This allows you to stay in the water as much as you'd like. In good purposes it can save drowning victims. In evil purposes it can help you drag down a person to the depths and have them drowned. This power helps you escape the world, if even for a bit, since you have grown to despise it so much.
You have been a beaten dreamer with aspirations crushed. Now you try to control your hopes because you don't want to get hurt again. You feel there is no hope for you in the future and have no real goals. But unlike the Controller of Time you do still feel, even if it's mostly negative emotions. You have few friends, if any, and feel you are unable to speak about your troubles. And unlike the Transformer, you don't feel happiness nowadays. All seems to be filled despair whereever you go and you are bitter becaue the world has failed you. It didn't turn out the way you wanted it too and you feel betrayed. It is also likely the feeling of betrayal comes from past relationships where you were left alone in the end.
Negative aspects: Since you are highly depressed and not letting out your emotions properly there is a possibility for cutting, to let the emotions out. Also, if the feeling of despair grows to strong you might consider taking your life.

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The wanderer - The lost
The one who never has a place to belong. The outcast amongst people, Wanderers find life to be rather lonely. There is an empty feeling inside of them that they can't seem to get rid of. However, not all is pain for them. Despite what others might think, they are very much capable of being happy and sad. Due to the fact that Wanderers always feel misplaced -to some extent- some adjust to how others are, just to have a place to be. The others in this category tend to shy away from people, preferring their own company, certain that they don't fit in. Both categories however, do keep most of their personal thoughts inside.
Wanderers tend to wish for a place where they are meant to be, resulting in a lot of daydreaming. Personality wise they are, in fact, dreamers. It doesn't mean they believe that they wish for will come true. Their inner world is simply better than this one. Most Wanderers try to find their special place, no matter if they are a passive-aggressive or a fearless individual. It is something they are drawn to do by nature.
Wanderers are also found to be hard to truly satisfy. Nothing will ever be the way they would have preferred/wanted it to be, and they tend to be disappointed a lot. It is not that they are perfectionists, they simply want for something to feel "right". Because of this, they often second-guess things/actions/relationships. Low self-esteem is a high possibility, as they often doubt themselves.
As their hole in their heart is constantly there, they may be prone for depression, as rarely anything is giving them true satisfaction. One day they may find their personal heaven, but it is important they are not too caught up in fantasies, or else they might pass by it blindly, missing it forever.
Quote:"Illusion is the first of all pleasures." -Oscar Wilde

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Your soul is caring.
Other people are your concern, even if you don't know them. If you see a person trip you worry is he is okay. You put your loved ones first and you're very mature. When someones sick you're nurturing and always try to help family and friends when failure strikes them. You can be called the motherly one, if you are in a group of people, which doesn't have to be bad. Love is something that's already in you and you have a lot to give whether you believe it or not. Your friends probably love you very much and come to when they need help since you're reliable. People can feel secure with you and generally like you.

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"Awake, yet never truly alive, I seek valuation beyond reality"
Life is unfullfilling for you, and you aren't very fond of it. What you like is your own imaginative world, which can be your daydreams, stories you write or anything similar. You always prefer that before the actual life. To people you come off as quite lonesome, and you may wish you had more friends, but you are more of a hoper than someone who takes action. That is how you remain lonely. Or maybe you just don't find anyone who you can relate to. Inside you feel empty, like you are missing something important that you can't quite put a finger on what it is. Somehow you wish to be swept away from the normality and led into something extraordinary. This has yet to happen, and you keep on feeling dissapointed with the little that life has to offer. At least you continue to express yourself through art/writing/poems/daydreaming.

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Your Evanescence song is: Bring me to Life
You have been so alone in this world for such a long time, your emotional level is very low. You live in the darkness in your life and mind, and feel helpless about your whole situation. People rarely understand you or why you act like you do. But then there is this person in your life that changes things. He/she understands you and makes you feel alive again. He/she is your ray of hope in your otherwise so dark life.
Now that I know what I'm without
you can't just leave me