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Poems, rants, stuff, whatever I want to put here.
[Poem] Smile?
Smile?

I'm falling, slipping, and giving in
These rusty changes can't hold anymore.
When my mind hangs by a string
I can feel it pulling
I'm afraid for the break.
When it finally drops, I can no longer say the constant lie:
"I'm okay."

I've never known another reality
Happiness is an abyss
That always seems to end.
So I indulge myself in happy things,
Shading truthes with a false smile.

I wish for once that I could mean it
I could smile wide for a reason
When I try -- I try. It never works.
For so long I've been greavin'.

My mind's a long and winding road.
I'm trapped in all the walls.
They're closing in, my breath runs thin.
When I close my eyes, to my surprise, I can breathe again...

The stress is gone, I feel relaxed
My mind is hanging on.
A deep breath drawn, exhaled, and calmed.
A straight line on my face.

Consciousness regained and feeling sane,
I recoginze your touch.
When I see your smile and bright brown eyes
Sometimes it's just too much.

The straight line bends a way I thought
I couldn't do before
It's true you know, I haven't lied
It's hard for me to smile.

But when I'm with you
No longer blue
I smile.

A true smile.

[Poem] you can't let go
you can't let go

seems the same
you change the chain
you've kept it long
rusted dreadful silence

break the wall
to see it fall
all the people
standing tall

loud and clear
your voice is heard
the spoken word
the only one listening is silence

tease the dog that's on the chain
he's insane
barking, snapping, wetted eyes
to make you cry

it's just another reason

you can't let go

in the eyes he stares you down
but is it you?
what is
the problem?

break the mold
the stories told
the legend passes on
only to fall on deaf ears

no one claims
a seat to fame
you want it now
why don't you go
and grab it?

on the throne
a golden frame
a loss of words
discarded dreams

just another soul

who can't let go

rushing mind its ********' black
you're going blind
now tell me
was it worth it?

hold your face
it's all in shame
the lord in vein
keeps screamin' out from your mouth

break the fall and
risk your arms
a better place just might
be waiting

******** the s**t
put it behind
erase the mind
damn, did i deserve this?

put up the wall
forget the fall
give up the throne
return back home
does anyone still love you?

risked it all
you took the fall
you were the wall
you tried it all

you made the choice
your lover's voice
still rings inside

just another part
another start
from a broken heart
you can't let go.

[Poem] A Melancholy Perception
A Melancholy Perception

These dreams I hold dear to me
Mean more than those who’re prone to let go.
When I feel like giving up
Reflecting on past mistakes, it hurts.
Only in time...

A bird singing, it passes right by me
Wind blowing through my hair
Surely there’s something that keeps it going
Surely, it’s there.

My hand goes out to reach the blue
When really it’s not even there.
Dark illusions taking my mind.
What do I have to live for?
My perception is always changed.
Living life through everyone’s eyes.

Oh it’s a wonderful ride.
Though I can’t touch the sky.
A bird sings right over head
One day I’ll be there!

Spawn of Dinosaurs
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