Every day is a disappointment. Every morning I wake up and I want to put a .30-40 Krag bullet into my brain. Every day things get worse. Every day I hate myself more and more. Every day I just want my life to end. Every day is filled with regrets. Every day my daily tasks become harder and harder. Every day my contempt for my fellow Americans grows. Every day I lose a little bit more of my will to live. Every day my sadness grows. Every day I get lonelier and lonelier. Every day gets worse and worse.
But I keep getting up, I keep trying, I keep doing. Experience says I'm going to ******** up and hate myself, but I want to prove my experience wrong, I want to prove to myself that I can be what I've always wanted to be. Every day I live is a victory, is one step closer to getting healthy, to finally being me.
· Mon Jun 10, 2013 @ 05:30am · 1 Comments