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So, pretty much, this journal is just to tell all of you anonymous journal readers that I'm still alive.

Also, that you should comment!

Wow. It's kind of weird that I've been writing so many journal entries lately. Maybe I've been in a reflective mood. ...mebeh...

Not today though. scream

Yesterday, we had the regional Solo/Ensemble competition at my school. All of my ensembles got a 1*! We're going to State!

Today, I've got a 4H meeting in Rice Lake at the rollerskating rink. It sounds pretty fun I guess. I don't really like my 4H club because they're all little kids. gonk ...it's hard trying to have a real meeting with little'uns being restless and talking and being rude. Don't their parents know that children need to be whipped into submission!? scream

xd Today I'm overusing the emoticons. Oh well. I'm hungry.

Hey, I found it. It was recovered by my computer. biggrin Here we go:

Sometimes, I’ll be driving and then, mentally, I’m not. I’ll be going along toward my destination or something when I won’t even be paying attention to my driving. I’ll be too busy thinking about whatever is pressing in my mind.
I guess that could mean that I’m easily distracted, which I guess is true. I’ve got a short attention span. But, if I like what I’m doing and it engages me, I’ll be quite devoted to it until it’s done. I’d say that an example of this is when I’m doing layout for the paper. It’s quite tedious sometimes, but I love doing it. And, not to sound cocky, but the truth is that I’m really good at it. In fact, I’m a lot better at it than most of the journalism staff. It’s actually pretty frustrating when I see people who disregard things that I would have fixed right away or when they do something a different way than the most efficient, best way.
I suppose I’m being arrogant right now. I hate it when people do that kind of stuff. A lot of the time, when I write about me, I feel like I’m being self-centered, which is something I really don’t want to be. I suppose that’s why I don’t write about myself very much. And because I just want to be consistent and if I keep writing, contradictions are sure to appear. And, of course, I don’t want that.

So, I am considering changing my username to “Canned Peaches.” I’d like some input, but I don’t think anyone reads this.

I ate canned peaches at lunch today.

I’ll just give it some time. If I still want my name to be that in a few days or something, I’ll change it.

Stupid journal I thought I posted yesterday isn’t here.

Sometimes, I feel like there is a point where if you act happy, even if you’re not, you will become so. However, it doesn’t really work that way for me. If I’m sad, I’m sad. I can be acting happy. I can be hyper and loud and rude and quirky, but not happy. Right now, even though this situation is mostly my own decision, I feel like there isn’t anyone who has got time for me.

When I write this type of journal, it disappoints me because then I’m not able to keep up my strong, independent, confident persona. I want from myself the consistency I expect from everyone and everything around me. Inconsistency is one of the things I hate most. I don’t want to be a hypocrite, but I suppose that it is just human nature. With every event that occurs, with everything that happens, we change. No one is ever the same.

Though I would like it to be, there isn’t anything I can do to make the world consistent. I do love change. I can adapt to any situation that is put before me. I can make the best of what happens. But, I just want me- if nothing else- to be one of the constants in my life. Me, my wants, my feelings, my persona.

Oh well. I’m acting so hyper and crazy because I’m reminiscing and restless at the same time. Right now, I’m not really like the present. ^^’ I either want it to be the way it once was, or the way I want it to be in the future. I want to get out of this school, out of this town, and away.

So, I've acquired this sexy James Bond-look alike. (So sexy.) *dies of sexyness*

But now, I've got no elemental hair and I'm down 4,000 gold which I sold a bunch of stuff I didn't need/want to have.

But the sexyness!

So I haven't posted on here for a while. I've made some awesome new friends lately on Gaia. ^-^ Other than that, I've been working on getting my things together for graduation and for college applications. I can't wait to graduate! scream ! Yay. I had a strange dream last night. It was a "scary" dream, but it wasn't a recurring scary dream like the one I had the night before. It was a new one! I wanted to keep sleeping and find out what was going on and stuff, but then I had to get up and eat french toast.

Do most people have their dreams in the morning? That's the only time I can ever remember having dreams. They're usually very complicated too. ...weird...

So, RondaRebal is really, really awesome. She donated me this OMFG and now my questing is over! OwO Much thanks to her! 3nodding heart heart heart

Went to Nebraska this weekend. Got back at 2 AM this morning. Went to first day of school today. Am hungry and tired. domokun