I honestly don't know which is worse: the fact that people really don't wish to give me a chance to really get to know me, or the fact that people just like to assume who I really am without getting to know me first. I honestly don't know. Maybe it wasn't such a good idea to talk to people, but at the same time, I have to. I can't avoid people forever. I need to be able to work on my self-esteem while talking to people. That's just life. It's full of people, and I can't avoid anyone. I can't put myself in that position of pure loneliness again.

I've already made a couple of great friends that were willing to give me a chance. That should be more than enough for me... I suppose I'm just selfish, and just wish to talk to more people to try to push aside any terrible thoughts about myself.