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Today is the beginning of yet another leg in this crazy adventure of mine. Brad is moving back in with his family today, so I am all alone again. I will miss sleeping with him and waking up to his kisses and nuzzling for sure. Oh well. I have to be stronger without him here and prove to everyone that I can make it on my own. My family is not on my side, so they will just have to wait and see how I turn out I suppose. Thanksgiving this year will be a quiet affair, since I do not think I want to show up at my father's house and have to face all the questions from my relatives. Obviously I am not welcome at Brad's house since my pregnancy might - literally - kill someone. I don't know what to do to be truthful with you. I hate the fact that I feel like I have to hide myself away from everyone and keep my pregnancy to myself. I am listening to the song "Madness" by Muse (hence my user name) and I love it. I feel like my whole life is a giant cup of madness right now and I have no way to escape it. I should probably eat something soon for lunch, but I am so stressed out over the conv. my father, step-mother, and I had last night that my stomach feels like it is tied in three knots. I know I chose the path I now walk, but why won't anyone walk with me?