It's a new year and nothing feels any different.
There is nothing different.
My heart still beats the same.
But this year has to be different.
I just have to try harder.
Try so hard it looks like I don't have to.
I just have to work harder.
Work until my lungs give way.
I just have to fake it harder.
Fake those smiles like they're something real.
I just have to pretend with all my might.
Pretend that everything will be okay. Pretend to be some one I'm not so maybe I can fit in and please the world around meh.
Wear my nails painted perfect. Lip always shinning. Skin always glowing. Groom my hair to picture perfect. Cover my scars and never let pain show.
Isn't emotion weakness?
I have to let the past go and stop feeling. Become what the world wants to see. No flaws. Emotionless.
Are you proud of yourself now?
You were suppose to be my Angel but look at how you murdered what I once was.
Now I have to fake every day so no one sees my pain.
Ruin the eMo
· Thu Jan 01, 2015 @ 09:29am · 0 Comments