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Welcome to the world of me.
Too Far
Blurt it out
on a paper piece,
later please
burn it down.

So that they don't see
just how weak
and emptied out
you are.
And you are.

Sandpaper rough
eyes and throat,
nostrils closed,
inhaltion's tough.

Your much too much
is just shy of
good enough.
Stretch your rubber band soul,
let's see how far.
How far?

What do you do when the King falls,
and his demons take the throne?

What do you do with this pain too large
to fit inside of your home?

Do these emotions have souls or faces?
At what point are they your own?

It's so damn hard.

Is this too far?

I'm losing touch,
with the memories
and energies that I need too much.

Empathy excuses
my uselessness,
but it's just a crutch.
I'm broken and I can't get too far.
It's become so hard.

Anxiety's
claws drag me down,
selfishness is bound
to riot in me.

I need to breathe,
I need to leave,
I'm fighting me.
And they can't see
just how far
is too far.

I can not be the army that protects or avenges the king.

I can not open up my door when your agony rings.

I can not unravel these emotions,
I wish I could cut their strings.

The rubber band has broken.
I've been stretched too far.

So I'll blurt it out
on a paper piece,
pray for release,
and burn it down.

So that they don't see
just how weak
and emptied out
I am.
God, I am.

Raindrop Wagashi
Community Member
Raindrop Wagashi
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