All week i have been asked to think critical to think of every possible outcome, and your question made me think alot too damn you >.< guess i wont be able to sleep until 3 again
Martin, I still love you and I always will. I'm trying to move on but it hasn't been that easy. we are so far apart i haven't seen you in months yet my feelings haven't changed. I can still remember the first time you ever spoke to me, the first time you hugged me, the first time you kissed me, the first time i looked into your eyes, i remember every moment i was with you, i remember exactly how i felt because i still feel the same way. My heart still beats fast when i think about you. The words you spoke to me the word i spoke to you will never be erased from my mind. You know sometimes I forget we are not together anymore, Subconsciously i will write a text to you telling you how much i love you and miss you right before i send it i remember your not mine anymore :/ And end up crying at night before bed. You know just being friends with you hurts because i want to be more than friends, yet if I or you break the friendship my heart will completely fall apart because you are one of the few no you are the only one i can talk too and I mean really talk. sad part is that when i feel the need to talk to you, your going to sleep or your in class or you take forever to text me back...and by the time you do i would have already cried and tried my best to forget it talking to u about it then would just make me cry again... still when we do talk you still make me happy and smile and my heart skip like nobody else can, i dont want to lose that. I love you as a friend and as a girl. only the friend part you can respond to i know that and i will take what i can get. Besides they are some cute guys here i can look at to distracted myself with and of course cute girls n.n
Now tell me what good does my confession do? Will things change now that I have confessed? No, I will still cry. I will still dream of you. I will still relive the memories of us in my head everyday i miss you because it make me happy it make me smile it makes me strong. You don't feel the same way for me anymore, i know. Do i feel better telling you? No. From the day you kissed me i was left open and vulnerable.
Every girl is different yet we are all the same in some way. The that goes for guys too. If you want to know a person feeling you must first take the risk, its your choice. You control your own life.
Now #2, #3,#10, #12,#13, #15/#16 god damn that a lot of numbers lol xD