K, my chrome crashed. I don't even wanna rewrite this post LOL
Yeah.. I dont think so it was 3 long paragraphs fuq dis. Summary. Well I have no idea if the guys care for me or not. Honestly, I don't even want to waste my time on them, I hate it whenever we hangout together again because we have so much fun together. It reminds me that they're lifelong friends. I don't want to include them in my life again. It's extravagantly and extremely painful to continue to chase them.
School is a big let down. Highschool is exactly what I thought it would turn out to be. Being in Pods has excluded me far out in space compared to everyone else in Pods and in Mainstream. I don't even feel as if I have a life anymore. All my mind consists of is Academics. It seems as if Mainstream kids are in a different world. All of the Pods kids dont socialize with anyone else. Frik.
Biology Trip is coming up soon and I don't know whether or not I should go with the group who abandoned me or go to a new group. Honestly, I just want to have fun on this trip and make memories instead of holding in resentment and being upset over small matters. I genuinely care and love them from the bottom of my heart. I just don't want to be left out again like last time. It takes a big toll on you. Before when I was left out it was because there was no space for us but now, it takes a big hit on me to be excluded individually.
I think the best choice is to go with them, I mean none of them resent me and I'm sure they'd be happy to invite me. Why focus on the small details and be mad by yourself when you can be happy. Lighten up a bit sandie.
Romance Sad Lyfe: My crush from, 2 provinces away is being a b***h.
End of Story.
· Sun May 06, 2012 @ 02:14am · 0 Comments