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like a diary, but not really
I like to think I tried my best. I'm happy where I am..
Feeling p good right now. I'm sure this feelings will pass soon, but I thought I'd take the time to write something. Uhm. I hope you're doing well! I am fine myself. Things for me are.. a lot of the same. I mean, I'm kinda nervous about some upcoming things, but no big changes in my life. Still living p dull. I've been trying to keep myself busy and off the internet, but lately that's been a bust. As you can see, I am online. Then again, I knew this wouldn't last long either. I'm too asocial for even online interactions.

I've been meaning to write something here for a while, too, but couldn't without getting nervous. I did write something a while ago (forgot when that was) and ended up deleting it. I can't say I don't remember what I wrote, because I do, its just a tough to explain. Lets just say I felt less than human at the time.. and those feelings have always been around. I did get a oc out of the experience, though.

I haven't been drawing as much as I wanted to. Its still early within the early, but I already hecked up my goals for the new year. "Draw everyday", I said. And "Draw once every two weeks", is what I did! I am going to attempt it again before the end of the month. Hopefully it sticks, but you know me. Still can't commit and still breaking promises.

I don't have any dreams to regale you with. I still dream about stuff, but sad to say I don't have a lucid dream in a long time. It sucks. And in quite a few dream, I'm not even in them. Its like I'm watching a show of people/characters doing stuff and that's it. I wouldn't count it as lucid dreaming, but I do notice when it is a dream. I just don't have any control of it and just roll with whatevers going on. Its can get annoying, especially when they turn into nightmares.

Like, I did dream of one my OTP's a while ago. One of them got pushed to thirdwheel, much to both their discomfort, because it wasn't canon. It was sad. I got to see them doing cute things together, then all of the sudden this other character comes in and takes their 'partner' away, doing all the same things.. awful really.

Not that I care what canon, but why does my heart ship non-canon?

Speaking of shipping.. Gaia had that shipping fanart contest. I entered. Didn't win. Good drawing practice. I drew Liam and Natasha! I looked through the Gaia manga and saw that Liam asked Natasha to the first prom, but it was never shown. I totally forgot that I used to ship it up until that point. In any case, I feel like Liam and Natasha would make a great BrOTP instead. Oh, and there was a new ship that caught my eye! Cygnus/Devon, anyone? It looks like it has potential.

Welp. Until next time, but hopefully not anytime soon. Before I go, I know I said I wasn't going to make an entry about it, and I'm not going to, but I would like to mention that I'm going be 21 years old next month. I might cry because its so unreal to me. Anyway, I hope you have a good night or good day!

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