finally learned what illness plauges my mind.
Rapid cycling Bi-polar disorder. With a deep sense of self.
It makes so much sense and explains so many things for me.
But now i am afraid. Because this illness becomes much worse with age.
Mania is slowing becoming my norm.
Those around me dont want to deal with my manic fits and mood swings and depression.
They say they understand. But I don't act this way on purpose. I can't flip a switch,
If I could,
why the hell would I choose to be angry and sad and bitchy all the time?