Well, it's been a few weeks after and I really don't know what I'm doing... There's been constant fighting and yelling here and I just am losing myself. I can't deal with my mum's bullshit any longer, I'm seriously going to end up killing her or myself. The way that she speaks, it's as if we are her slaves and have to do everything she wants and complains about her own personal tastes while we can't for ours. ALSO THE YELLING! She keeps calling my siblings and I mean names and swearing and calling us worthless and stupid a cows and I can't, I can't.
Who knew that a small woman like herself can produce a voice like that. I can't block out some of the things she says sometimes. I don't want to feel her compassion or sympathy for me. I still haven't told my parents about what happened a year ago, I just want to, but can't because they are just going to impose their stupid rules and beliefs on me. I can't change to what they want, it's too late for that.
My brother also ran away today. I should've joined him. He came back after 3 hours, so I guess we were just fed up from her, as usual. My dad started becoming violent, he doesn't even drink or smokes and just is ugh. Why is my family falling apart?
On a positive note, I've patched things up with my boyfriend. We talked it out, why he couldn't really say nice things and mask it with his own comments but it was sweet. But I guess his comments make him unique and he doesn't tell other people the things he calls me. I dressed up in lolita fashion and he called me cute. It really made my day on Thursday and I love him so much. I never want to leave him.
· Sat May 24, 2014 @ 06:56am · 0 Comments