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Short. Thoughts of a lost case
The experiences I have had, or at least the view of me through my rather grey-tainted glasses, by being me.
I like being in my room...
I like being in my room....especially when I shroud everything in darkness.....There is only silence in the darkness....and for that period of time.....I feel like I do not exist anymore.....I feel like everyone has forgotten me in that short time...I feel like...I am someplace safe.....unreachable by anyone...in a place where I can hide and have some sleep in where I still can look around me....I love this darkness...I feel so safe....and I just want to die like that.....

I fear, I have been awfully selfish and inconsiderate....I do not regret my actions...but regret the effect it had on a person who was very good to me.....and thus I regret my action.....What I did was unforgivable......I wonder...No, I am pretty sure, I can never undo or make it up......-sigh-

.......and yet, he was not the only person....but he is the only person who still remained pure and not let himself get tainted with hate........He is the only reason why I admit I had been selfish and inconsiderate......I do not feel any care for the others........

...I guess, I have not learnt anything from that...





People of the past
Sometimes I just think of certain people I used to talk to and re-call how they told me often how they were my friends or stuff, but it seems rather hypocrite considering that now a days they just seem to look for every occasion to insult me with any most insulting word they can come up with............

I do wonder if they are happy knowing they make my life harder, or that I just cease to enjoy the environment around me because of their influence..........

It strikes me as rather odd how some people seem to hate me sooo much just because I decide their company does not seem to be very good when I just cared so little the moment I cut contact with them...(Actually......sometimes even earlier, to be honest....) It is a little disturbing.....





DarkLadyvanStar
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