T o o t e l e f r o o t
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Cure me.
Drowning. Nice word. It sounds ridiculous. But if one could feel it instead of reading it, then we would actually understand the word. Just strangle yourself. Take both your palms and wrapped them against your neck. Press hard onto your neck, like you're trying to squish it. What do you feel? A tightness on your chest? The beating of your heart? Does everything gets steaming hot or freezing cold? Do you feel like panicking? Not yet? Of course not. You stopped right? Imagine if you couldn't.

Another one? Okay. Let's try deep breathing. Just take deep breaths. Inhale and hold it for a few seconds before exhaling. Does it feel nice? Does it feel relaxing? I bet it does. Now picture the saddest thing you can think of. An abused puppy? A hungry baby? A broken family? A broken love? What makes you miserable? Being helpless? Useless? Having nothing? Whatever it is just dont let the thought go. Let it consume you. Picture it and let it get worst........................................
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Now take that deep breath............................................
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Is it still relaxing? Does it still feel nice? Or does it feel like you're just trying not to choke? Like youre trying to swallow a big fat rock. Was that deep breath heavier than before because you felt something got stuck on your throat? You could swear it was your heart.

Thats how I've been feeling. How long? Im not quite sure. I just wish there was a cure for it.