I'm shocked to say that everything has been actually going really well. I feel good about myself lately and I've finally been able to recognize what kind of girls I like. I think part of the problem with me and girls is that I wasn't coming across girls that I felt an interest in. There are two girls now that I do have an interest in: one works at Subway, and I only met her once briefly, but I plan on trying to go there regularly and talking to her. The other girl is named Carol, and works at my dad's office. One interesting thing about the girl at Subway is, she reminded me a LOT of Tetris for some reason... I don't know why. I didn't get the chance to talk to her though, because she was mostly working in the background, while another girl was serving me and Bill. But her small physique, her short dark hair, and her seemingly pleasant personality make me think of Tetris. Hopefully I get to meet her again, if the odds are on my side. In the meantime, Carol also seems really nice, and I've had the chance to talk with her a bit. She doesn't remind me of Tetris, but she's definitely really cute, and I'd go out with her if I had the chance. My dad is also friends with her dad, which makes the situation much more comfortable I think. So I'm starting to have a little hope in the girlfriend side of things, but I'm not going to get carried away that easily. If I become too excited over little things, and those little things don't turn into bigger things (which is pretty likely), then I'm just going to be that much more hurt. I'm just going to go with the flow and see what happens without forcing it too much, but also not overlooking the opportunities.
Last night Anyi and Chris were talking with Ray about JB, because apparently he made some very offensive comments toward them. He said something along the lines of "No God would look over hispanics", or something stupid like that. Apparently JB is pretty religious (not surprising), and I also notice he makes a lot of racist comments (again, not surprising). I'm going to put it out for the record that I still don't consider JB my friend at all. I've grown to put up with him. If he makes an a*****e comment, I strike him right back with something clever to make him shut up, but also won't start a fight. When I first met JB, he used to really get on my nerves, but now I know that's just how he is. He seems to recognize it and I think tries to make up with it. It's like I always say, there is absolutely no way you can fully put yourself in another person's perspective. You can attempt to, but you'll never 100% be able to put yourself there. It's impossible. But Anyi and Chris seem to be facing the emotions that I faced with JB before, and they spoke to an RA about it. Honestly, it's not my dorm he's hanging out in, so I have no say, but if I were Chris, I'd not let JB in there anymore. I mentioned that to them too, but Anyi came back saying that JB is Pie's friend, and she doesn't want to get in the way of Pie and JB just because of her own feelings.
Well, after thinking about it more today, this is what I think of their situation:
I understand completely why Anyi feels that way, and why she doesn't want to forbid JB from hanging out in Chris's room. It's not her room, and it's Pie's friend. At the same time though, Pie is also Chris's friend, is he not? If so, then Chris and Anyi should be able to sit down with him and discuss JB. They should be able to tell Pie how JB is affecting them, and being their friend, he should be able to understand and try to think of a solution for them. They could arrange it so JB does NOT come to the room if we're all hanging out there. Or maybe we should have a different hangout spot, so that JB isn't with us (which I have a feeling they've already committed on that, since I rarely ever see Chris and Anyi in Chris's room anymore...).
In this kind of situation, I would just keep things simple. If JB was my friend and I saw him offending other friends of mine, I'd forbid him from the dormitory, let alone our hangout room. Simple as that. I put Phil and Ryan together once, but I'd never do it again after the clash they had, and I never put Bill and Ryan together either, because Ryan hasn't exactly had the best past with those two guys, and I recognize it. So the solution is simple: Keep them from having contact, and nobody gets hurt.
Also, speaking of dorming, I found out that I'm not going to be in the same dorm next year in the fall. I have to do the whole moving process again, and I'll be placed in a different room. I don't really know what the point of that is-- it's the same ******** building, but whatever. XD
But that also means that I'll have different roommates next year, and I will have to rebuild new trust with them. I've known Marquis, Evan and Bill for a month, and I've finally gotten to the point where I can reasonably trust them. I still lock my room before I leave my dorm for class or something, but if I'm just out in the living area talking to someone, I feel comfortable with my door unlocked. Before the start of the year though, I didn't know WHAT to think of my roommates, and I was nervous about the trust factor. As it turned out though, they were pretty nice people. They really kept to themselves, but they're not at all harmful from what I can tell.
However, when I get new roommates, that could all change. Now I have to be worried again about who the new roommates are, what type of people they are, and whether I could trust them with anything or not.
Also, my HDMI cable in my bedroom is missing, and I've scoped my entire bedroom and never found it..... Hmm...
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