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Ai's little blah
It's random.
I'm not meant for anyone.
Any attempts at venting my pent up aggression is thrown back in my face and I'm called childish and immature. Why can't I just do what I need to do it let it out? I'm still scarred from losing so many people. Why can't I find someone who will stay and let me lean on them? In the end, I'm always too 'clingy' or 'too emotional' or 'too ******** up' to stay with in any way. I can't be me with anyone at all. I can't ask for help from anyone. I'll be ignored for... for forever... I guess... Having no one to hug me when I need it, a hug from someone who has crossed into my inner most circle of trust, that hurts so much. It makes me feel so alone. I feel empty; cold. Now I don't have anyone like that at all. And I can only handle one person like that at a time because... well... if more than one shows up then my standard has lowered; I would be letting in bad people who don't deserve it. But why can't they stay with me longer than just a few months?? What's wrong with me? What drives them away?!

Ai Kyuketsuki
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Ai Kyuketsuki
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