Usually you'd think family as to be the ones that we are supposed to rely on no matter what the situation. Man whoever said that is wrong...so absolutely wrong. I've been with them for all of my life and well through the time I grew up everyone just left each other and we were torn apart from one another for so long. What's worse is that I'm between it all. One massive load of family issues all bundled up into one huge boulder on my back. After all these years everyone is fighting, torn apart, yelling, backstabbing, and overall shedding the blood that we all hold in our veins. As I sit there in the tub, water flowing down my head and my back I wonder, how did this all come to be this way? Why are we fighting? I've come to hate it all, the tears, the fighting, the bloodshed...I think I even come to hate every one of them. You expect me to help you, but I can't help. I've been damaged. I rather just watch you all drown in all your hate and sorrow. I cried for help and all I received from every one of you was it's going to be okay. Lies...it's all a bunch of lies. It was never okay and is still not okay. I am still trying to heal from all the hurt I've been dealt. I ran away from it all because I wasn't strong enough to deal with all the pain and I found my peace finally. Helping all of you, I will have to look back and see the kingdom I have left which is now in nothing but ruin. I did what I could to mend your relationships but to no avail. All that is left is for you to fall and drown in the despair that you all have created. I'm moving forward, please don't chain me up in your problems. Don't pull me back into this. Why can't we just all get along?
· Fri Apr 18, 2014 @ 02:12am · 0 Comments