Really don't know what to write anymore actually and I just really feel like there is no hope for people now and days. Well I actually got hurt again and really feel like love is out to get me and destroy me so I do not love anyone anymore or even trust people with my heart. The guy that I liked for over a year and a half now, well i found out a few months ago he likes me as well and we were going to talk and see if anything happens and well things were going good but I think its going to go down hill right now. I just found out today that he plans on going to Arizona and living there and it kind of made me feel like s**t because I actually was honest with this guy about things and told him that I didn't want to be jerked around and all and so he promised he wasn't going and my friends told me to actually try and put my heart out there and see what happens. Now I feel like crap because I put my heart out there again and I'm getting it hurt again and as well making me think there is no such thing as love, happy endings, prince charming or anything that makes us all believe there is such things as love. So idk what to do on that part but I do know once this year is done and over with I will no longer be going on gaia so much or not even go on it at all. People here just seem to be focused on themselves and not care about others, and if they do care about others they don't care about the others. Its just depressing as hell, I try to get some new role plays going and when I do they die within 15 posts or even less and I wonder what I did to cause this and only learn they have other role plays that are more important . So its getting to the point I just want to drop all the rps that I have and quit all the way, I keep hoping that maybe things will change and people will be honest with me and want to role play with me. I give up on gaia and finding permant role play partners and as well ever thinking that there is someone out there for me that will want to be with me and just for sex.
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