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All right, So first post, godda make it count right? Wrong, I feel a rant coming on. All right so I 'fell in love' with this nice younge, back two years and one month ago from yesterday, he was sweet, shy, a little introverted, but still a great guy. He was wonderful, wrote me poetry (Take note, if you ever wanna inpress me, poetry is the fastest way to my heart, after Gerard Way and My Chem concert tickets) but he had this sence of patroitism that I guess I didn't care about, till he joined the Marines. I've never had a strong sense of patriotism, in fact, I really don't like americans or even humanity all that much, no offence. So this guy, stole my heart, I thought he was the greatest, and promised me all these things. Guess what? never kept a single one. I know, I'm stupid for spending all this time looking into it, but honestly, if a guy has no faith in you, should you really put your faith in him? Does he honestly think he knows everything just because he's a 'leather neck'? I don't know. I really don't want to find out. I hate being wrong, and if I am, dear god only knows what I'd do. Being wrong's agianst my nature and drives me mad. Another thing, that just drives me up the wall, people demeaning me. Oh dear god I'm going to blow a gasket if I keep going. I have to focuse, DAMN YOU A.D.D.! Anywas, yes, my boyfriend, the jar head he is. I don't mean to be bad mouthing him, honestly I don't, and I don't wanna be whining, but I'm sick of hearing how horrable I am. Am I such a bad person because I wanted a Valentines day present? I know he bought me one, he just neglected to send it, and somehow, by him saying that "at least you know i bought you one" it doesn't make me feel any less neglected. And is it so much to ask that he turns off his computer for a hour to talk to me. I know 'an hour a day is way to much to be asking of him' but we just to talk to for hours unend before he bough his lap top. But honestly, I'm a bad person for asking this of him. That kids gonna make me shoot myself in the face pretty soon, which I hope will not be pretty. I already know I've lost my gerbonkin mind, so I can go there. Stupid boy, stupid stupid stupid boy. Stupid MARINE! Actually. I'm gonna make another blog to rant about my hate for the marines. stressed mit Haß und dem Verabscheuen von meinem toten Herzen, [Mother.War.]
[Mother.War.] · Fri Mar 09, 2007 @ 04:32am · 0 Comments |
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