<B>Just an intro...</b>
So, now I started to use totally untrue, non usefull titles for my journal entries it seems, hope you dont mind? ^^ Well.. am listening to music right now. It is nice, as always. I love music. What would I do without it?
I have just been sick for about.. oh well.. 2 weeks or more? But its alot better today.. and I have been working. I know, ewww, working sick at burger king! Hope I dont get fired for writing that ~caugh caugh~ but dont worry, its not like I would pass it on.. besides I was just doing dishes or picking up trash. Which reminds me, on fast food places, please, take away your own trash like recommended, thank you ^.~
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"Well I love a rainy night
I love a rainy night
I love to hear the thunder
Watch the lightning
When it lights up the sky
You know it makes me feel good"
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<b>Memories of mom...</b>
The small quotes you will see during this entry of mine is from a song named "I love a rainy night". The version I am listening to is sung by Eddie Rabbit. Really, its great, check it up <3
You might wonder why I choose that song to run over and over this night. Or maybe you dont care at all. Anyhow, no it aint raining. But it does make me think of my mother. She loved the thunderfilled nights. Especially during our visits in austria. Mom could stand out at the altan (not sure that word it right, its like a floor and a roof, but no walls, outside. Anyhow, she stod there when the thunder came in at night, just gazing out over our fields, the woods and endless views of mountains and grass, watching the thunderbolts pass trough the sky. It seemed to calm her. I love it too, its very beautiful. Mom could enjoy those little things to the fullest. I admired her for that, and loved her.
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"Well I love a rainy night
It's such a beautiful sight
I love to feel the rain
On my face
To taste the rain on my lips
In the moonlight shadow"
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<b>An image..</b>
Sometimes I wonder if we just hold a picture of people. Like if we look at them, their status or their looks and then just decide thats the way they has to be. Like we imagined them. What happens when we notice the picture we hold in our hearts are not real? It was just tampered with in adobe photoshop. Making us believe in something unreal? Lately I been having <u>ALOT</u> to think about. Nothing really of my buisness maybe, but somehow.. it just felt like an image for me started to fall apart, having its edges bent and broken. Messed up.. Was it an accident or is it simply the way it is, with purpose.. I would say more, but cant really talk about it directly.. just some thoughts of mine... hmm...
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"Showers washed
All my cares away
I'd wake up to a sunny day
'Cause I love a rainy night
Yes I love a rainy night
Well I love a rainy night
I love a rainy night"
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<b>"Love actually.. is all around us"</b>
I saw the movie "Love actually" today with a friend. Wanted to see it for some time and daddy just happened to rent it.. When they said in the beginning, what they said about "is all around us" I figured they are right. I mean, right now I been very gloomy, maybe it was hormones as my period was coming. Making me extra sensitive about everything. Anyhow.. I guess there is more love around than what sometimes it feel like. I do ask myself whats the point with living if there is so much sadness, I had alot of it lately and its chewing my heart away.. So was nice to be reminded that there is alot of beauty out there, if you let yourself see it.
If you havent seen that movie already, I suggest that you do. Really, it was surprisingly good. I rarely take the word of magazines and alikes when they say something is good.. But this time, it really was.. and was fun to see all famous actors and connect them to previous movies too hehe...
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"I love a rainy night
I love a rainy night
I love to hear the thunder
Watch the lightning
When it lights up the sky
You know it makes me feel good"
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<b>A week full of plans</b>
This week, even tho I normally am busy with compy stuff, well before this winter I was, I have full scedual... besides from thursday maybe.. tomorrow will go fish shopping, hang with a friend or two + sis, and then dinner at grandparents place...
then we have thursday, a bit more dead, but I figured will try and sleep and then visit the cementary, maybe alone. or a friend tag alone. Would like my family to go with me, but they seem mostly sad about it. Just lit the candle and leaves.. I need more than that, so wont tell them, dont want them sad or guilty.....
So saturday, work from 11-7, then celebrate a friends birthday, Chatrines, so going out.. which happens I do maybe twice a year XD so.. will prolly be this years last clubbing.. as I dont enjoy it that much..
and then, sunday.. i work.. hope i wont be beat tired...
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"Well I love a rainy night
It's such a beautiful sight
I love to feel the rain
On my face
To taste the rain on my lips
In the moonlight shadow"
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<b>My Artistic death...</b>
Alot of me lately seemed dead, while other parts not. I barely done anything artistic at all, which actually makes me sad. What am I gonna do to get my inspiration back? If I wanna work with art and design I need practise.... hmm.. I miss my online friends.. and roleplaying, but computers seem to make me restless and sad... I miss Hime, Chii, Dan and all the others I rokeplay and talk to on msn, yahoo and gaia.. I dont even roleplay.. imagine that! .... help me get my spark back.... please?
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"Puts a song
In this heart of mine
Puts a smile on my face every time
'Cause I love a rainy night
Yeah I love a rainy night
Ooh I love a rainy night
Yeah I love a rainy night"
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