First one, this journal is scary because I'm actually going to say something serious in here. not something common for me.
Two.. i'm scared. i'm scared of a few things. i'm scared of losing a few things. personal things. personallty things. I have a job offer and it scares me. i'm afrid I'll lose part of who i am and be consumed by the world... when I close my eyes and picture myself I see a warrior in the midst of battle... I know its a wierd sight but its what i see. Also i'm afrid of well the job itself. Its a tec. support job.. and To a few people this will sound really odd,but for somereason I'm afrid of having people relie on me in that way. And well i'm scared i'm not sure if I can say it enough right now. I'm not sure what to do... I don't want to grow up. I want to stay a child forever. I know that sounds weird. but i do. GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
.... I won't..i won't lose myself... I WON'T! I will keep me the same...
I am the child of choas and flames...the thought of death and killing doesn't even scare me... My family.. my choosen family is everything to me and I will never EVER CHANGE! but please.... those who know what i am talking about.. please help me...I won't let the world consume this soul.. I will consume the worlds soul... BOW DOWN TO MY UNSTOPABLE WILL!
I'm going to start selling storys.. well hopefully... tomorrow after the interview i'm typing up a new chapter... hopefully it will be inbumed with my soul and take on a life of its own. Good night world
· Wed Feb 28, 2007 @ 08:59am · 4 Comments