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Well my about me section said that I was off to make a journal entry. However thats an old about me although most of it still applies. So with that being said I really don't have anything to type in here, but I can rant for days so let me pick a topic. Hm. Should it be anything involving love? You know the common things such as joy, depression, heart-ache, bliss, ignorant bliss, blindness, etc...the list just goes on for days.

I guess i'll dip a little into probably two depends on how much i want to keep on typing by the time i get going on this.

Sorry had to adjust the pillows under me to get all comfortable.

Now back to my real reason for even still going. First I talk about heart-ache. It's the most common and most misunderstood feeling in the world. At least I think so, because some people take crushes too far. In my life i've only loved one other person not counting the Angel i'm with right now. However the feeling of being broken in half and torn bit by bit came crashing down when i found out she had been cheating on me for a good few weeks.

The way I found this out was by a picture I wasn't supposed to see of her and her "Friend" kissing. The more I dug into it after the break up I also found out that she had been dating this guy that I had trusted her around for a few weeks before telling me. Now of course this curves ones way of thinking, because I did tell this girl all of my darkest secrets and biggest fears to have her turn on me like that.

So I became paranoid and over protective over the things, and people I cared about. As I was going through all this pain and suffering that I would hide from the world as best I could I found a friend. She was a great person to talk to all together. There was nothing about here that I didn't like I mean we could talk, but I had never told her what had happened with my ex. More to the point even if I had wanted to date her at the time(which I had I just sort of denied it) she had a boyfriend.

I was very sweet to her, and very respectful of the fact she did indeed have a man in her life. Little did I know that she had started liking me as well. However we played this off a bit, but before long things didn't turn out that well for her and the person she was with. Funny how things just seem to turn out. I felt I could trust her a lot more then the girl I was previously with as well.

Well things came down to it and she called me one time. That was the most nervous I had ever been in my life. Apparently I didn't do such a good job because I was having trouble talking, and began to fumble over my words. She says it was cute to this day, but you know...yeah. Anyway that night on the phone she told me she loved me and that made me smile more then I can even begin to describe. However when I wanted to tell her the same it was so hard to do. I kept tripping over my words, but I got it out soon enough, and I'll never forget the feeling of my heart mending back together. Simply by hearing her say, and me saying back "I love you"

Without her my life would be in shambles, and I know i've lived a small part of my life without her. So now that I have my adorable Angel Racheal which I'm sure I spelled that wrong considering that name confuses me to type XD. Anyway every since I've had that love of hers i've known my life to be complete.

Thanks for everything my dearest love.
For I would be nothing without you.
I can't wait to talk to you later today.

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