Is what Jeff decided to say.
well I'm in a bitchy mood so here's our conversation.
I'm sorry Kit, that I haven't been on and i'm sorry I haven't called, i'm just not sure that right now is the best time for this relationship. I'm trying my hardest to get into a college without having to go into a community college first. I just don't think that this relationship is going to work out. I mean, I barely know anything about you and if you haven't realised im bi, i'm not just swinging towards men. I've thought about it and I want to be able to have a family, I want my own little son that has my eyes to look down to and carry on my shoulders and thats just not going to be possible for us. I'm pretty sure you realize that this isnt going to work out and that a long distance relationship isn't going to be a happy one. I'm sorry to tell you this but I just don't think its going to work. I hope we can still be friends and please don't throw me out of your mind, but just know that you are in my heart and always will be. I'm sorry you're having to read this. I hope you can find your true love. Someone that can care for you and always be at your side. Take care of yourself okay? I <3 You.
And this is why I'm never dating a bisexual guy ever again.
Dude, you're right. I do realize that you're bi and hell, I'm sure you have some little girl over there that's making you happy. Good for you. When it comes to bisexual men, you'll always choose the girl over the guy. Obviously. Since it's a hell lot easier to have a girl that it is to have a guy. It's just easier for you and you'll always go for that.
Ugh. Frustrates me. I can't blame you, you're a teenager and you're going to go with that ever the ******** floats yoru damn boat.
You know, I'm really sick of this. I really am. You're about the 3rd guy to do this same exact thing to me. And I'm sick of it. LOOK. How DARE you give me false hope if you weren't ********' sure of your sexuality.
NO. YOU'RE ********' INCORRECT. You're not bi, you're STRAIGHT. I'm sick of these emo assholes that claim they're bisexuals. You're NOT. You're straight. You want a family. Reguardless of how ******** POSSIBLE IT IS FOR US TO HAVE A FAMILY, you want a family with a wife. You're STRAIGHT.
The WORST thing about this entire thing is that I was willing to give myself to you in every way possible. ******** that. I see how men work now. Psh. Pathetic. I really would have prefered that you'd have killed yourself back then. You've put me through so much CRAP over the past few months.
And you know what, don't lie to me. You don't love me. You don't. Let's just get that straight. You don't care for me at all. At all. And I KNOW that you don't. I mean. what kind of ******** game are you playing? Send me something titled "missing you" and then you freggin' tell me that well-it's impossible for this to work and that you basicly don't love me for my lack of v****a.
Don't use College as an excuse. Okay. You just plain out don't want a gay relationship. That's all you had to say. You didn't have to lie to me about how ********' busy you are. All that s**t. I can't believe I thoughtyou loved me. I really can't. I'm so damn naieve. I usually don't cry over guys, but i feel like you've slit my throat and then chuckled off with some b***h on your arm.
Don't even say you're sorry. This is what you wanted. You didn't want to be with me from the start. YOU'LL be happy. You'll get what you want. You'll get the girl and you'll move on, ******** her, have some kids raise them and be happy the rest of your ********' life. That's what you want. There it is. Go get it.
Don't EVER drag someone into your circle of lies again. Don't get with another guy unless you're sure it's what you want.
I hope you find happiness with some girl. Just don't break her heart like your broke mine.
Don't speak to me again unless it's important. You sicken me.
What the ******** is your problem?! I haven't lied to you about anything. Do I ******** look emo to you? I hate ******** emos. All they do is whine and complain and makeout with guys because they want attention. I may have been upset sometimes over family issues but I was never the stereotypical emotional guy okay?! Maybe some people want families. Okay, is that so wrong. I don't want to adopt some kid that looks nothing like me and neither of us can go through all the stages of making a baby so don't ******** get pissed about it. You never want to have a family? Jesus christ. Well, whatever wtf. You knew this wasn't going to work out ... Have a ******** merry xmas.
Jeff, how do you expect me to react? Seriously. You don't talk to me for a month and the first time you do, you say that you can't be with me because I'm not a girl.
Dude, every time I got a PM, I thought it was you and it wasn't.
I DO want a family and I expect it to happen through invetro fertilization.
I was planning on trying to meet you over the summer, so much for that.
I thought it wasn't, but I wanted to believe it would. I really did. I wanted to believer that we would be together. I wanted to believe that you loved me.
Why did you delete your myspace and all of my comments on it? I think you were ashamed of me.
You lie when you say you miss me, because judging by this PM, you don't at all.
Through my relationship with you, I've given up alot. Some of my friends don't even want to talk to me because they heard through the grapevine that I was gay. I've told my friends and they supported me'n all that jazz-well the close ones did.
It just breaks my heart. It really does. I'm sorry I can't give you a child. If I could, I would. I would have done anything to please you, but it's clear that, that's one thing I can't give you. You have to understand that all my life I've had it in my head that if I were a woman, my life woudl be easier. And you telling me you don't want to be with me because it's long distance and because I'm not a girl, breaks my heart. It really does.
I would have waited forever, but I know that you can't. You've got your life over there and I'm sure the girls all have thier eyes on you'n all that jazz.
Would you love me if I were a woman?
Seriously. Why do my exs insist on me having a vigina?
God, I'm so tired of going through guys that are too closed-minded to and sexually insecure that they cannot even express with reality that they love me.
I mean...seriously. What the HELL is wrong with me? what do I do? I give myself to every man I'm in. I sumbit to thier rules, but I never ever get anyone to agree on love.
God. Sometimes I wish I were a girl. It'd be so much easier.
· Mon Dec 25, 2006 @ 07:15am · 1 Comments