Yeah.. I keep trying to fix things, and get them back to normal but it looks like that is never going to happen. I tell her that I am feeling left out and she basicly doesn't care. She says that is a lie, but I know it's not. If she really wanted to be my friend she would actually TRY to act like she even cares. If she really wanted to be my friend she would try and get her mom to stop hating me. -___- If she really wanted to be my friend she would at least TRY to hang out with me instead of ditching me for her other friends all the time. If she REALLY wanted to be my friend she wouldn't ignore me and threaten to not talk to me anymore if I tell her that I am feeling left out. I dunno why I have been trying to hold onto this friendship that is CLEARLY broken, for so long. It took me a while to figure this out, but I think this is a bit beyoned repair. And honestly... I have no desire to be friends with her if she doesn't even care that I am feeling left out and lonely. And when I am upset, she should at least try and make me feel better, because that is what real friends do. I guess I just have to accept the fact that she doesn't want to be my friend anymore... and move on...
*Sigh* All of this is esier said than done though...
I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through
I wish that I could bring you back
I wish that I could turn back time
Cuz I can’t let go
I just can’t find my way
Without you I just can’t find my w a y . . .
· Wed Nov 15, 2006 @ 10:13pm · 1 Comments