I was taking a nap after church and before lunch (as usual). Some of you may remember me telling you about a nitemare I had earlier this year Monday, February 06, 2006 to be exact. But yea, I had another one. However this time I knew exactly what it was as soon as the dream turned.
Heres how it went down. I was dreaming, looking in a mirror but suddenly I realized I could not see my face, or my hands. My hair and clothes were visible but not my face or hands. I swirled around screaming noo, and this monster/demon was behind me saying, you are no longer a child of God. Unlike last time where it was only this dark mass trying to smother me, this time it had form, its hard to remember what it was but it was dark and I dont know, and I dont want to remember. When this part of the dream hit, I could hear my mother and sister in the room beside me talking and laughing (they were making lunch) so I know I was partly awake during this part. I was trying to scream no, but the creature just laughed and continued to lean over me, trying to steal me away, I tried to scream stay away in the name of Jesus, but it just LAUGHED and said, "you are no longer his child". I had no voice, it was gone. There was nothing I could do. I kept trying to wake myself up, but I couldnt, I felt as if I was going to be dragged down, and would never wake back up again. So in my dream I concentrated on my mother and sister's voices pulling myself away, fighting to regain control. Finally I did wake up, and felt my pulse to feel how fast my heart was going, its usually at 60 beats a minute when im at rest, but when i woke up from that dream it was sgoing well over 300bpm, and you cant tell me thats normal for even a nitemare.
Now here I am not wanting to go to sleep.
I think it may have been another spiritual attack, but WHY, why now, why in so short order? one in Feb and then one again now in Sept.
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