I went to school, did the usual run around and something just happened to catch my eye as I was leaving... It was a notice for a memorial service that is going to be held on Monday... It's for a friend of mine... I asked the teacher what had happened, I was terrified, because I had just spoken to her on Tuesday before our Geometry test... The teacher told me that she had been in a car accident on Wednesday monring...she was in a Ford Explorer with seven other people...it rolled and she was thrown from the vehicle...
Needless to say I came straight home instead of going to the gym like I had planned... I feel terrible becasue She wasn't a friend that I really hung out with, I said "hi" when I saw her downtown and once in a while at school. I had known her since the 6th grade (roughly 6 years...). I felt terrible because the last thing I said to her was "Did they start the test yet?" I feel like I told her "See ya" when she left but I don't know if my mind is just playing tricks on me to help me cope...or if I really did tell her goodbye... I don't know, I just feel like keeling over and never getting back up 
... I'm still crying 
, I plan on going to the service on monday... I just... I've never had anything like this happen to me before...so I'm not sure if I'm over reacting or under reacting, or what... I can only say for sure, that I miss her. And that she'll be in my thoughts for a long time to come...
