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I haven't written in here in a really long time. I guess i've just been neglecting it. I'm sorry mister journal I didn't mean to neglect you. Any way, I don't really know why I'm writing in her. If anything I should probably be going to bed. I have to help mark campsites for the Relay for Life tomorrow. Hopefully Mosuke-kun will be coming too. The relay is actually this weekend. Mosuke-kun, Ashley, Jay woo, and I will all be there. It should be a load of fun.

On a different note, my printer cartridge crapped the bed today, so I wasn't able to print off a character sheet to make my D&D character for this sunday. I don't know if I'll be going anyway. I mean I really want to, but I don't know what kind of shape I'm going to be in after the Relay. Oh well..... I'm sure I'll figure something out.

I'm really missing my boo right now; it seems like the late hours of the night and early hours of the morning are when I miss him the most. Maybe it's because that's the only time when I have enough time to miss him, and it's the only time when I'm not, and can't be in active communication with him.

Wow, changing the subject again. I've been in a lot of really fun RPs lately both forum on Gaia and old school in the "real world." I'm really enjoying the sound dojo in mosuke-kuns guild (you should check it out) and the Naruto based one he's running old school. Then there's old school Mage: the Ascension that my drama club director's husband Brian is running. That one's been a lot of fun. Although in the sound dojo, I'm really enjoying taking the idea of my Naruto Char and changing her up and expanding on her.....

Wow I've written a lot here. If only I could write like this about the Witches of Eastwick; my AP homework would be done already. Speaking of AP, that's another thing that has me all stressed out. I've read the book, but the directions for the paper are just so vague and confusing that I don't know what to do. I think that if I cry over it one more time, I'm just going to drop. I know deep down that I really don't mean that because I know Teetsel's Engilsh will be like beating my head off a brick wall; it just won't be challenging at all. However, I think that I find Brosious a little intimidating. Which is weird because I'm not usually easily intimidated, but it's just that looming threat of failure that frightens me. I've never failed at anything before, so I'm scared to death that it's going to happen. I mean I'm nearly petrified at the thought of failure. It almost makes me sick to my stomache thinking that after all these years of straight A's and honor rolls that I will probably fail. I mean there's got to be a first time for everything, and I'm just so afraid. I almost want it to happen so that it's over with, and I've learned how to handle the failure. Then. though I'm afraid of having nothing left. Shool is what I've always been good at my friends are musicians, singers, writers, actors, and artists, and I'm good at school, but what happens when I fail at school. Then, I've got nothing left...... And that scares the hell out of me. sad