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Operation Impending Doom
I have been gone for so long it feels like I have to relearn everything!
So, so far everything has changed, with the exception of my daughter of course.
Kaydence is now 6 years old in first grade.
We live in Port Charlotte, Florida.
I am currently not working but trying to find a job.
The difficult part about that is, I'm Pregnant!
I will be having another little girl at the end of January.
Pretty excited for that, although completely not prepared.
I have been in a relation ship with my boyfriend [Caleb] for almost two years now [December 22, 2015].
I have not had any friends in a while and I think it's starting to take its toll.
Thankfully I do not have too much going on anymore.
My ex hasn't really done anything as far as our daughter's life goes.
But thinks to me filing for child support, he felt the need to request parenting time and do the right thing.
We'll just have to see how that part works out.
Hoping for the absolute best though because my daughter does show a great interest in her dad.
He has shown interest in her before for a couple of days, and then just went ghost again.
So hopefully this time will be different.
It completely tears her down when he does that.
So I have debating on how I feel about men [kind of due to my current and ex boyfriends].
I have been stuck in my head and unable to choose if this is something I want to keep perusing in life or maybe I should try another route.
It's only been resting in my head for a couple of days now.
I cant even think of what to tell Caleb.
I'm pretty sure he would either flip out, or argue with me about it.
The way he has been acting this past week, is repeating an awful pattern that every 2-3 months ends up leaving me in a huge state of depression.
It does take me forever to get over too.
He drinks.
Sounds kind of familiar, but he's not nearly as bad.
But when he does drink,
he can't stop until he's drunk.
And he always says rude things that just completely knock him out of this amazing image I have of him.
Like completely becomes a different person.
And then after some time of arguing about the reoccurring problem,
everything will be all better again.
And all over again.
It's a huge problem I just can not seem to get rid of in my life when it comes to men.
I do not go to bars to meet men,
[To be continued]

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