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Seeking the Balance The red wheel spins into the spiral, increasing in frequency. In all the chaos of creation, seek into the void that surrounds us all—pulling forth into vibrational thought, into mind and into moment.

Shin Shiku
Community Member
To Whom It Concerns
Yo, been a while. Yea... I know I have problems. Those are apart of this life-path. You have yours as well. I wanted to save you... but that is why I know I made many mistakes—We made mistakes. Now I see it clearly. We are more similar than you think. Trust issues—I tended to jump the gun thinking I needed to make a decision immediately. My anxiety made me feel like I needed to do something right then and there. I wasn't patient enough. It all comes down to trust. I wanted more trust from you. I was not patient, and I am clueless to your situation. Nor did I want a sexual relationship from you... only now I understand. I was curious, but it felt weird to me.

I had fully accepted you long before. Until you made a jab at my sense of humor. I will have you know this... I didn't have a sense of humor as a child. I LEARNED to have a sense of humor from my adopted (true) mother, which I adore. That struck a major chord. I came from FILTH. I was saved.

Anyway... I still care for you deeply enough to think of you and your well being like a sibling or partnership kind of relationship. I would let you go, but you keep popping up in dreams. As much as I let you go, you still pop into my head. I still worry and wonder how you are doing. I do miss you, but I will not try to reach out, as the only way would be your "sacred space". I had been tempted many times, but I know it is wrong to do so. You will always be a kindred spirit and friend to me, always.

You know where to find me... I am not hard to look up... I am not expecting anything at this point. But... thought I'd put this out there anyway, just in case. I hope you are also doing well and finding your way in this life. Thank you for the valuable lessons our meeting has taught me. All things have a reason.

If not Gaia... I dunno, you know where to find me. I keep walking away just to dream about you once in a while. If it needs to be this to let you go, that is fine. No games, no need for account creation or anything. This is fine here. Hope you are ok. Things are better now. Hope they are for you, too. Even if we never talk again. Sorry for popping back in. Take care. You still have an ally in this world...

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