uhm... I have enough with all.
they who says i did wrong! they who says i did right!
who cares anyway since they care for result only. how selfish act!!
I only wish, I hope I able to work for it. and... i don't know i did wrong! I think I able to help & share my ideas but it give people hurt feeling cause I did something that I shouldn't.
sorry, I am crying while typing here.
I just cannot stop thinking why? I have enough. I just do not know what happen & why people around me keep blame me?
If they did keep like this toward me, I prefer to stay alone & refuse to talk more.
why must they argue & dwell to people who do not know what happen?
especially, they say all JOKE! are you sure?
I am... not joking.. however... when i say joke, it will super unpleasant!
oh well... maybe that place just not suit me. I have no choice also. I have to survive because I will make someone cry if I cannot LIE very well in front of those person. I have to hide my tears everyday.
right now i am on super complicated situation which include my emotion stir inside their plot.
start from August I have to prepare for super worst choice until next 4 month.
it's unfair but I have to keep my promise. I should brave to face the fact that is something worth to protect & since love include inside, I have to ready to sacrifice again one more time.
Just now I have to close my eyes & think of how to call this plan as "survival from true love"
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this journal mostly full of unwanted words.
however, from read these you may know how am I toward people.
however, from read these you may know how am I toward people.