It's at moments like this where I feel so ******** stupid, like I should've known better.. Some people I just click with and those people are so far and few between that when I find them I am beyond happy... then s**t happens.. and it first matter how many times I check on them, how many gifts I send, nothing matters because to them I am Nothing. Just a name on a screen and in truth it is my own fault.. I knew better than to let people in... i knew better than to open up, I just knew better because this hap pens with everyone including those that are face to face..

I am the expendable one, I am the one that can vanish, I am the one that is allowed to disappear.. it has always been that way and it will always be that way... so.. I will keep this name... The Forgotten Maso...