Late Night Contemplations
It's 4:20am. I'm kinda tired, but kinda awake.
For the past few days I've done nothing but sleep, Easter and Kingdom Hearts. I slept earlier today so I woke up around midnight to put candy in these eggs, pack everything up and take it to work for tomorrow's Easter Egg Hunt. The goal is to be there by 10am, set up and get ready for the hunt to start around noon. Then I went home, picked up my small totes and put two of my dresser drawers in a plastic bag and brought them here (to Rob's).
But...to be honest. There's a bit of a sadness looming over me.
As I drove around the city thinking about why, it pretty much boiled down to the same topics (in addition to me realllllly not wanting to do this Easter thing and realllly not wanting to plan events large nor small) I've been feeling and I've come to a conclusion...
I really need to be having way more fun in my 20's.
I figured one reason why I've been so reserved for the past 3-4 years was due to all of the drama with Rob. Also that I don't have any friends up here...all of which may change if we move to the DMV.
I know if this job comes through and we move back, I will be out more. I should be having a lot more fun. And I hope that Rob's okay with it. It's my vision that I'm encouraged to go out and have fun with my friends and come home after a long night and pass out next to him...happy AF to come home to him.
We'll see...
So I definitely need to be having a lot more fun...but I am definitely beyond over my job gonk BEEN over it. I've been craving a new experience for the longest but Philadelphia hates me so much that no one wants to hire me...and of course this new possibility arises and it's just about everything I've wanted from a company. Marketing focused. Free tuition. No dress code. And apparently everyone leaves the office on Fridays at 4pm. Almost too good to be true. Anxiety and fear starts to creep up though thinking "What if I'm inadequate for the job...then what?" which stems from some of the challenges I've had with my current position.
I'm determined to make it work though wink
So I turned in my applications for 2U on Friday and before the end of the day, Carly (Jr. Recruiter) reached out to me and said she was interested in discussing the Brand Marketing Manager position. Tbh, I'm on such a Digital kick now that the Marketing Associate program sounded more my speed, but this piece would definitely have some digital wrapped up in it as well. Plus, I love branding. If I didn't want to work in Digital Marketing, I'd totally go for branding and creative at a branding agency.
I was going through my rollodex of contacts trying to think who I knew that worked in brand marketing to pick their brains. The first people I thought of were Armand and Tianna with Hilton and Curio brand marketing but I didn't think that would be too smart seeing as how they're current partners. Then I thought of my good ole' pal Ava who worked right under Nicolas in the Brand Marketing department. This is great. I'll reach out to here tomorrow or Monday and see if we can connect before this phone interview that is tentatively scheduled for Thursday. Carly hasn't confirmed the time yet but I figured she was busy trying wrap a few things up before the weekend.
I know one thing...if she decides to push an in-person interview EYE will push to have it the next day and I will hop in my car and go!
Alas...I will work on this "more fun" thing. I need to get to healthy eating, working out, being 180 lbs and getting this google analytics and adwords cert and financial planning s**t straight first.
Love heart
Ryo
Mood: Nervous Excited whee Music: "Young, Wild and Free" - Wiz Khalifa & Snoop Dog featuring Bruno Mars
Ryonosuke · Sun Apr 16, 2017 @ 10:00am · 0 Comments |