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one - this kid is driving me nuts. ugh. i need some time he's not trying to talk to me.
ugh.

two - a slight annoyance. so, i've been trying to limit my carbs to the 300 grams recommended. because my fasting blood sugars have been a tad bit high. not like awful awful, but.... when the range on the lab slip is 80-99 and yours is 108 when you fasted for 8 hours..... i hope this isn't a sign that my pancreas hates me.... and i'd like to have my pancreas function for a long long time. (diabetes on both sides of the family... so i'm not paranoid....)
so, i'm exercising daily. and, my diet which was to eat ALL the carbs because i'm trying to gain weight... i'm trying to eat more fats and proteins and stick to 300 grams of carbs.

but i feel like a turd when.....

my friends with food allergies (casein (dairy protein) allergy, gluten allergy, wheat allergy, egg allergy, and my lactose intolerance) get together.

They're planning on doing a Christmas cookie exchange. Challenging with all our food problems. I don't have the heart to mention "don't use jam - because no seeds." and if I'm coming over to eat cookies, let's not do soda. (instead i'll politely bring tea and drink mine with no sugar. and i'll avoid picking up cookies with any jams, fruits with seeds, or things covered in nuts... unless i want to bring one of those for my dad. he can eat the seeds and nuts)

i can't bring myself to tell them "actually, i don't drink soda anymore because.... "
because if i'm limiting myself to 300 grams, i'd rather eat potatoes, cookies and vegetables. maybe a slice of bread.

i'm also having a hard time expressing to them my new diet.... no seeds. limited nuts. small amounts of raw veggies.

the crohn's diet.

( it feels like too much to work around with their problems plus mine.)

i was trying to tell my friends last saturday.
but the only person who would hear it all out was sarah.

amy and marlin pretty much refused that anything is wrong, particularly with my small intestine.
"why would it suddenly get bad?" marlin says.
well. i'm getting older, and i've always had this problem. this problem doesn't get better with age, and without treatment, it gets worse.
the real questions is "how are you still digesting food? it's a miracle!"

i did a food journal for a month. and noticed so long as i don't eat a lot of raw veggies, or things with skins, and don't eat many seeds (raspberries, strawberries... these things are evil. *sigh* ), i'm okay.
i also have to eat yogurt and kimchi. as long as i keep pushing the probiotics, i feel better and i can eat more.
actually with kimchi, i can tolerate dairy! often i can eat a half cup of ice cream just fine. yesterday i ate 9 cheese ravioli without diarrhea! YEAH! ^_^ (i did get gas pain and actually as i type, i have some gut pain... but.. well i ate green pepper today and that has skins.... i tried! must have eaten a few too many skins. *shrug* )

2 saturdays ago i ate a sandwich bun with sesame seeds.
huge mistake.
saturday night - belly ache. all day sunday from waking up until 3am monday - pain. actually, sunday it hurt so bad i couldn't stand up for more than 15 minutes at a time. and that is WITH pain meds (i'm on pain meds 24/7).

i'm not actually getting treatment, because i'm not officially diagnosed.

yeah. the gastroenterologist was a bit of a joke.
i should have been a bit more prepared when i saw him, but i was thrown off by his happy go lucky demeanor.
"no more diarrhea? don't knock a good thing. keep doing what you're doing."
was all he had to say and didn't want to say anything else.

i should have retorted "do you know what i'm doing that's so good? I put myself on the Crohn's diet. So my diarrhea is less. But I still can't gain weight."

Next time I screw up on my diet, I should either drag myself to the ER or call the gastro people and cry on the phone. So someone believes me.

Not being able to stand for 20 minutes to prepare dinner is a problem.