so monday he said we will hang out on wednesday cause we hung out on monday before i had to go in for work and he said wednesday we will hang out and well guess what it is wednesday and he didnt even bother showing up and now im upset because i told him i was wanting to try something at the lake and now im starting to wonder why i even got up in the first place cause my body got excited and he said he doesnt feel good. i sometimes think im being used again and i was used in the past and it isnt fun being used for the other person's personal gain and i get nothing out of it but a broken heart again. i want to be able to control my emotions not let the emotions take control of me. when he asked me out which was a week after i graduated from high school and we went swimming with my friend which was my ex cause i broke up with him and we were just close after we broke up cause we were friendly and so he left to go home it was just me and the other guy so we left two or an hour later and we went to my place and so he told me he had a question to ask me so i asked him just let the question out and i will tell him my straight up answer and he said will you go out with me and i said yes and i think from there on i was happy i knew where i belong. but let me back it up before summer even hit it was getting close to graduating and i had tutoring cause i suck at math and so im sitting in the math tutoring room it was just me and the math tutor and i get a text i thought it was from my ex but it wasnt cause i would have recognized his number and the number said hey and im like hey back cause i had recognized the number and he said what you doing im like im in tutoring for math and he said oh. and we had a conversation going and he said what you doing after i said nothing but going home and then he said can we hang out im like yeah tomorrow when i get out of school and so he showed up one stewart cause it was the way i walk home from school and just seeing him my heart started beating fast he walked me home every day and one day my sis had already beat me home and so i put my stuff in the house and i went back outside and he hugged me and then he lifted my head up and he kissed me for some reason it just felt right and i felt a spark from him i felt a legit spark from him and he held me which it felt so right and i said i have a bf and he said oh im sorry im like nah its good so next day i get out and im getting all excited i tell the then bf i cant have you walk me home im meeting up with a friend of mine so he goes opposite way and i met up with the friend and we do the same thing and he said i have a girlfriend who is cheating on me im like wow that didnt last long... fast forward its graduation i graduate almost all my family sees my graduate we go out for pizza and go home for presents and cake. now its summer i hang out with guys at the lake and the bf i had then goes home cause he was needed and so i walk home with the other guy and he just asks me will i be his girlfriend i say yes and im all happy and glowing. he takes me to his house week after so i meet his parents should have been the other way around but whatever and so he introduces me to his parents blah blah blah, he goes out and im in the spare room which he calls the game room and he leaves his phone in there with me and i go on his skype cause its still up and i see that he still has his ugly ex up there on his skype he said he still has feelings for her and he is still in love with her and im thinking um dude you just asked me to be your girlfriend and that thing cheated on you move on cause im better than she is and will always be better than what she ever was to him, and just recently he brought her name up im like seriously wtf and he cares about her which really made me mad im like so what she has a small heart and she goes in for surgery, my ex had major problems but i stopped caring about him so why should he still care about her?
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