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Continued from last post.
To sum it all up, I kinda miss our old friendship. I mean, I totally get that we grow older and assume more responsibilities, but I figured that he'd be able to handle it all. Not really sure what's going on.
Anyway, with his increasingly new found confidence, Marlon pretty much alluded to me not "living" or "taking advantage of my youthful good looks" because I'm not out here posting suggestive pics and thottin'. It took everything in me to say, "Bixch I've been traveling for the past three years...You've been at home going to paint stores with Tommy confused " I've definitely been living, but living and adulting at the same time is hard sometimes.
I can tell you that the statement kinda hit me sideways and I asked Forque for his thoughts. He said that thottin' is reserved for those who aren't in a relationship (i.e. James, Justin). Omar is in a real-ish relationship where he knows if anything inappropriate happens, Leo will be all over that a**. It seems clear that Omar doesn't want to be the reason the relationsip dissolves for any reason. Lucky for Marlon, Kavon lets him do whatever the hell he wants as long as Marlon accompanies him to the paint store rofl He's lucky enough to have secured a cushy, comfortable life for himself with adequate freedoms while the rest of us are workin'. Kudos to him.
Alas... I've been feeling anxious lately.
I know in my heart that I can't keep working like I am. I can't do it. I just can't. Working everyday and ever 6 days a week consecutively is clearly affecting my health by not giving me the adequate rest time that I need and it's taking away from other growth opportunities. This is something I've been saying for a while now.
I stumbled across a possible opportunity this past weekend when I decided to take a break outside with Travis. He genuinely asked me how my life was going because, ya know, I don't talk much so if you're a real person who cares about others, you'd at least ask and I told him and he told me that I should connect with Ashleen, Harshaan's sister who is the Marketing Coordinator for Zoomer under Rob Falcone, Director of Sales.
After some prying, I learned that she works a lot. She's the only person doing Marketing and I know how difficult that can be, so having someone to help out with a few projects would definitely be helpful for her. And since I do this s**t every day.....I think I can offer some assistance.
So I'm trying to secure something with her asap so that I can at least still be "somewhat" employed with the company but not have to work every day. Honestly, this is the perfect opportunity, the opportunity I've been looking for tbh, to have a second gig on the side doing marketing, learning, honing skills and making a difference. I'm not exactly sure how it's going to work out, apparently Harsh told her that I'm a student when in reality I graduated a few years ago with a full-time job, but I figure if I can do Zoomer on the side this long, I can still be somewhat of a help.
As far as payment goes...I'm not really sure. I figured I'd be happy with an easy $50/week but we'd have to see how work flow goes and I don't mind working for free for a few weeks until we both get the hang of it and see how this can work. In all honesty...I just don't want to work everyday. Not anymore. But I can't make moves to leave the company until I see what's going on with this.
So alas, I have a call with Ashleen tomorrow morning. Fingers crossed. I literally can't work everyday anymore.
More to come soon. I'm trying ya'll.
Love heart
Ryo
Mood: Decent crying Music: "Anytime You Need A Friend (Stringapella Remix)" - Mariah Carey from MusicBox
Ryonosuke · Wed Aug 03, 2016 @ 01:18pm · 0 Comments |
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