How do you let go of someone? How do you stop thinking of them everyday, how do you live life without letting a simple phrase remind you of a conversation you had with them, and you finding yourself smiling or laughing like it was just yesterday? How can you miss someone that ultimately did you dirty, like you never were important in the first place? How do you stop missing them, how do you stop wishing you could have changed what happened between the two of you?
I really would have liked to think I would have listened. I want to think I would have accepted everything. But to shut me out completely because I tried to confront him? Like I'm nothing. I'm sorry I wasn't good enough for you. I'm kind of busy since I'm the only person actually working out of the three women able bodied enough to do so. There are days when my dad and I tag team on the laundry, and nights when I come home and go straight to the kitchen because no one else has cooked and it's getting late. I'm sorry I don't know what I want to with myself as far as a college education goes, and find myself disenchanted with the world at large. There are days when I just want to charge forward, and wish I had a way to confront him in real life, that's how mad I am at him for being so cruel.
Oops. I think this journal entry is turning into something else, so I should probably end it here.
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3/19/10
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