I was diagnosed with clinical depression and put on anti-depressants. I really thought this medicine was going to cure me. That's why after 3 months, and I was feeling even worse, the doctor upped the dose. After that my suicidal thoughts got worse. Then I had the worse panic attack I've ever had in my life. I jumped out of a moving vehicle and ran across creeks, farmer's fields, and through blackberry bushes. I prayed a desperate prayer a half an hour before a Christian family found me on my way to the freeway bridge. They talked me out of going and had me come inside for hot chocolate and they got me to call my grandparents. A few months later I quit my meds and never went back. Instead I started doing regular counseling and prayer.
Through this I now realize that the problem likely stemmed more from anxiety. If I had been given anti-anxiety meds there may have been a different outcome. However, my trust with medication has been broken. I still struggle with anxiety, and occasionally depressive episodes, but I haven't taken any medication for them since.
I'm not saying medication doesn't help people. Of course it does. It just didn't work for me. I also wouldn't recommend anyone quitting the pills cold turkey like I did. I thank God I didn't experience any negative consequences, but I was young and not very well informed of the possible consequences of suddenly stopping my meds. If medicine works for you great. If it doesn't then I believe there are worse things out there than counseling and prayer. I'd rather turn to those than alcohol or meth or something.
 00Dolphin_SW · Wed May 11, 2016 @ 02:18pm · 0 Comments |
