~: heart :~ *sigh* I'm worried about my friends.....Alot of crap is going on, and I think most of us are either unaware of it, and those of us who are, aren't talking about it.
Some times it really feels like our group is surrounded by a black cloud of lies so thick we can't see our hands infront of our faces....Sure, we talk about things and stuff, but for the most part the things we say are said in a joking matter.....And alot of the times I think we joke at things that really really worry us.....We poke fun at stuff that really bothers us, rather than come out and tell everyone about it, we make light about things. Then there's the other stuff. Things we keep to ourselves, things we don't want to talk about, things that make us self-conscious and make us feel bad about who we are. Things we feel make us unwhole, or stuff that just plain makes us uncomfortable......And when I think about stuff like this I get depressed. Thinking that we don't really know eachother as well as we like to think......but maybe that's just me and my paranoia acting up again?
*sigh* I have to go....mother is being rawrish again......I swear she's always gotta get on my case when I'm pissed and more likely to snap at her and get in trouble.....or perhaps I just notice it more when I'm mad...? ~: heart :~
blu_sour_skittle · Wed May 17, 2006 @ 02:15am · 4 Comments |