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I was hooked on you
And
Closer than most to you
Now
What am I supposed to do?

He didn't want to live someone else's life. This was who he wanted to be. This was who he was going to be. And love was what he gave to her. The truth was that he was always looking for new ways to give her that love, to make things better for her, to make her smile, new ways to make her laugh, to make her heart skip and to make her heart melt. He was always seeking better ways to make her happy. He wanted to be that person. That one adorable person that everyone knows, the person that is everything to her - that is special to her. He wanted to be the person she went to when she wanted to escape from the world.

She was popular. He didn't know how he felt about that, but if that's what made her happy, then he accepted it. Knowing that there would be five other people talking to her at all times, when he spoke to her too, that was something he had to live with. They were her friends, he told himself, they are there for her. It's fine. Why do you have a problem with it? Deep down, he guessed that it came down to attention. He wanted attention. To get that, he had to find new ways to tell her how wonderful she is.

He had to think, and think hard. Many guys tell her how amazing she is everyday, and many more want to date her. Many more are just perverts who want her as trophy....

"I love you. So much."

No, no. Something more. You say that everyday. Tell her something that no one else can tell her - tell her something that isn't from a film, or a book, or from a song - Tell her something from the heart - your heart. Tell her how she is everything to you - but say it the way you feel it. Tell her how she was just another beautiful blonde girl to you when you first met her. She was another person who you could see having a perfect life, with a generous lover who would give her everything and beautiful, cute children to go with it. Granted, you could tell her how she was a little annoying at first (I mean, what the hell was she doing in that town in the first place? She didn't even roleplay back then. )
Then tell her that since then, she has become so much more. Tell her that she has left such a huge impact upon your life that now you dream of her at night and that when your thoughts wander, you always end up thinking of her. Tell her how she killed your imagination, because you can't imagine life without her. Tell her that you used to sleep like an ordinary person, but since you met her, you stay up late at night, talking to her and thinking of her. Tell her how she became the one. Tell her how you are so deeply in love with her, you are so worried that you're not enough for her. So worried.... so ...