i havent been on here in literally a year bc i definitely change my avatar according to the season and my avatar is wearing winter clothing so. havent been here since last holiday season amazing
but the point isn't how long its been since i've been on gaia but you know what, this is probably going to turn into something mildly long-winded anyway
i kind of ended up going back through all my old posts and like--man. i was alternately cringing and laughing in turn. but i'm kind of glad i wrote about the things i did, because i honestly forgot about some of them. like the code names, or the hilarity of my history teacher, or all the really weeby s**t i did in high school i'm glad i wrote it here--its not something i keep in my handwritten journal (thats mostly for travel stuff). it's really interesting how i've changed--the voice is mostly the same, but there's a lot you would never hear me say now.
especially all the emoticons. ugh. not that there's anything wrong with them but. idk theres just something about them now that i dislike.
the last post i ever wrote on here, dated 3-4 years ago, was about how this would be my go-to place to rant about friends and that's the whole reason i was going here anyway.
april (thank god i read about all those code names in my post and was able to figure out who she was) got a boyfriend earlier this year. like, january. so she and him have been almost together a whole year. but they had a big argument last night--well they've always had arguments, but this one felt different--and april thinks they're going to break up.
but the thing is she called me to talk about it. me. i have like 0 experience in dating and more importantly i suck at consoling people over the phone. like. in text? i could do it. in person? i could also do it. over the phone?? hahahahha no. and i didnt even know if she wanted advice or just someone to listen to her. so it was definitely hard for me bc i just didn't know what to say.
and i just wonder, why do people come to me for advice? april said she called me bc im very "down-to-earth", which i'm taking as a compliment, but. i dont know i SUCK at giving advice, unless it's school-related, in which case i could probably write a whole BOOK of advice (**note to self: why haven't you done that yet you could probably make bank).
i don't know. i just felt bad bc the conversation was obviously so very awkward and stilted and i STILL dont know if she wanted someone around to comfort her and say "there there" or if she wanted advice. ultimately i ended up doing a bit of both.
honestly i dont mind giving advice, but like i said, i'm AWFUL at comforting people on the phone. also it'd be nice to know what the other person wants--advice? comfort? both??? i can do any but i need to know. and like--usually you can tell but with april i really couldnt.
anyway, i did the best i could. i should probably go do hw now, but gaia has changed so much that i think i'm going to go play around instead, haha.
onceandthefuture · Sun Nov 23, 2014 @ 10:39pm · 0 Comments |