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... the story never ends...
From sweet to sour.
Sour to sweet?
My tastbuds are ruined. My touch, my knowing of that sensation is gone. The sour has burned it, the power of the sensation of sweet was so strong that when it turned it burned. Burned it out of me.
Will I know what sweet will taste like again?
Did Eve ever find a anything so sweet as Eden? Would she know it if a new Eden, a different kind of Eden was placed before her.
What if she could recognizeit?
But is recognition understanding, is it feeling?
There is a movie that says "Everyone's reaction to opera the first time is powerful. Either they love it, or hate it. True, those that don't love it will come to appreciate it but will never love it the same way."
What if I can never taste again?
What if I had thought that sweet, though it was really sour, what if I thought it was the purest most perfect sensation? could I then find it again?
I'm afriad. What if's aside, I'm terrified.
I was ready to accept that I would never find my sweet again. Quite content in my bitterness.
I'm not content anymore.
I'm agry.
I'm scared.
I'm sad.
But I can't stop smiling. Even through all the sour, the sea of it, the drowing and sufficating sea of sour there isa gentle breath of air. It comes and goes.
Persistant.
It makes me smile.
I can't breath that air as I should though I want to. I want to breath the air, take it in, feel it's sweet tender taste.
Perhaps it's fear that won't allow me to. Fear that the air will turn sour, or worse, become fire in my mouth, in my nose, my blood, my body. My heart.
But the real question is, how long will that breath of air last? How long will it wait for me to breathe it in?
Time, time, time.
Like everything else in life, you never realize how much you need and want it until it's gone. Like air.
You never realize until you're drowing.
I think I realize. I recognize. I appreciate the air, that breath.
But I still don't take it in.
...time, time, time; the fairy tale turns stale...
 Vanair · Sun Apr 30, 2006 @ 01:52am · 2 Comments |
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