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i was never really think about this…

but i realized

we never have an ordinary relationship… right?

we always think that we’re strong enough to endure it all.

i’ve dated many boys

and you’ve dated many girls…

but in our heads, we were thinking each other.

when finally you came to me,

it wasn’t a good memories at all.

i’ve got hurt, turned down, and cried the most

but pretended like a brave-strong girl at all

like.. inside…

i was screaming for you and begging you to stop all that you’ve done to me

i could have just turned you down at least..

but you know

being stupid as ever, deep in my heart… i was happy

that you’ve choose me.

i pretended like those just a bad dream and i gave you the last chance

then

just when we started to be there for each other

you’ve got to go,

and so do i

we have to live our own life anyway.

and just like the past

i pretended to be that brave-strong girl who doesn’t cry for a silly things

i’m here

and you’re there

sometimes we lost contact and fought

feeling insecure and got bored each other

while insides are screaming and missing you like crazy

missing you until my chest get hurts and just can’t take it anymore

like.. i hate those kind of feelings.

i’m afraid. if tomorrow comes, what will you say to me?

what will you do?

will you eat well? will you study well?

will you see another girl who is better than me?

will you still have faith in me and still love me?

will you miss me like i miss you?

will you hug me when we meet again? will you kiss me when it’s time to say goodbye?

being a weak girl like this,

afraid at everything in the future

afraid for waking up in the morning

afraid for texting you first

afraid for giving you gifts

afraid for showing you love first

why?

because i’m afraid

that i will get nothing in return

i’m afraid that…

it was only me who feel like this.

it was just me.

love is when two people care and

wanting to support each other, isn’t it?

when they need each other like crazy

when they become best friends and soul mate at the same time

.

really

.

.

is it just me?