So, tonight me and my fiance went to the post office and sent off our wedding invites! Ahh! The time is getting closer and closer till we tie the knot. I'm so excited but still nervous, cause you know, it's my wedding day and stuff. I don't want to mess anything up. I want everything to go right. My mom says she works best under pressure and I'm the exact opposite. I like when things are smooth sailing. Especially on a day like that. Now all I really have left to do is get RSVP's back and then buy my dress and my bridesmaids dresses. That'll be fun. I know my wedding will be fun, beautiful, and amazing. Not just cause of dresses, or decorations, but because of who I'm marrying.<3 The love of my life.
So in other news I've been listening to a lot of older music lately. Like music I used to enjoy back in middle/high school. Some of it I just wanna ask myself, "Why did I ever listen to this?" And some of it I forgot how much I loved it. It's kind of fun to revisit certain things like that from the past. It kind of shows you how much you changed. Honestly I think I've changed for the better because I have better people in my life now who helped steer me in the right direction. I mean, back then I had friends and stuff but I don't really think they had my best interests in mind. They turned their backs on me when I needed them. That's why I'm so glad to have the friends I do now. And my wonderful family. I'm glad I'll always have them. And of course my soon-to-be husband. I never thought I'd be so lucky to have someone like him.
I was just so depressed back then. I just used to sit in my room and cry every night. I'm glad things aren't like that anymore. I mean, I'm on antidepressants now. But I know that even if I weren't, I'd still be happier because I got rid of the negative things in my life to make room for the positive. I have depression, it's in my brain and it's a part of me. So is my anxiety. But now it doesn't take over my life. Which I'm glad about. And now I have people that, even when I do lose myself and slip into anxiety, they're there for me and that means more than anyone could ever imagine.
· Sun Jul 13, 2014 @ 06:19am · 0 Comments