Always, life seems unreal. My life, it doesn't seem like mine. It seems so fake. When someone helps me but later they say nothing. I get so nervous for something simple like a presentation or concert and yet everyone applauds even if I make so many mistakes...
It's like I am being mocked even if I didn't do so well or failed. Almost like they're telling me, don't be nervous, or you'll do better next time...
I shake so much because of the nervousness. Sometimes it hurts and it feels like no one means it. Life is unfair. My parents always told me that, but life doesn't seem unfair... Just not like I am actually there.
I am not sure what I am feeling, not ignored, or supported not even hated... Although I know what I want to do later on in life, I have no idea where this life will lead me. It can be tiring, boring, or just tough but I don't mind.
Why would I?
· Thu Jul 03, 2014 @ 10:45am · 0 Comments