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Selena's World
~This life I'm living. . . Is it what I want?
The world outside is so vast and beautiful,
Will I be able to make it out there?
The world outside. . . Can I compete with it's beauty?
I am an ugly hermit with many chaotic thoughts and feelings.
If my thoughts were to be set free in the world,
They would paint the sky black.
Outside looks so welcoming---Is it because I'm lonely here?
No, I can't be.
I have things and people who love me here.
People. . . Even though they come and go. . . Some of them have loved me.
Things. . . Materialistic items and Mother Nature's creations comfort me.
Love & Comfort (no matter from where), Can blast through loneliness. . . Right?
Love & Comfort. . . can't fix loneliness though. Despite how badly I wish it to be true. . . Only knowing that I accept things as they are can.
Because it is true. . . I am lonely here,
Always gazing upon happy faces as they pass my window.
That is as close as I ever get to "happiness" and "acceptance."
A spider once crawled up on my shoulder when I was looking out at happiness and acceptance and whisphered in my ear, "Everyone is a little bit lonely sometimes. Don't be afraid."
This life I'm living. . . Is it what I want?
The world outside is so vast and yet stifling,
Wil I be able to make it out there?
The world outside. . . Am I too ugly to compete?
I am an ugly hermit with many chaotic thoughts and feelings.
If my thoughts were to be set free into the world,
They would paint the sky vibrant colors.
I dream of the world outside extending it's hand to me,
Assuring me that I can make it out there.
A fly once whisphered in my ear, "There is nothing like taking that first step out into the world. You are beautiful, don't be afraid."
The lives of flies and spiders and the many other creations of Mother Nature are depressing and dangerous.
When they step into a home or outside there is a high possibility of being killed,
They are misunderstood. . .
I told them, "Everyone is misunderstood sometimes. Don't be afraid."
To not have fear of something. . . That is what truly makes us free, isn't it?
The fear of being rejected, laughed at, scolded and even fear itself were the things that restricted me all this time.
Because even things that mind their own business can be killed so swiftly. . . Makes the world outside kind of Ugly, right?
I am ugly and I can compete with the world out there.
If my thoughts were to be set free they would contribute a piece of myself to the world and make it pretty.
This life I'm living. . . I have chosen it.
Although the world is vast and yet stifling. . . there is room for me.
I will become Happiness & Acceptance





 
 
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