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Losing Weight to Save My Life.
At 476lbs I am disabled, my health is deteriorating, and I fear that I will die. My only hope is to lose weight and try to gain back some of the mobility I once had.
I watched my baby cousin yesterday...
and what I found is that the hard work I have been doing is paying off. Even though my muscles are still sore from picking her up all the time, it was a lot easier for me this time than it was last time. My walking has improved too. Last time I watched her I was almost crippled by back pain the next day. Today it is just normal soreness.

I also overcame the temptation to eat the sugar cookies my dad baked. and let me tell you that was not easy. I am debating whether to weigh myself again because the amount of swelling in my legs varies from day to day and it makes it hard to get an accurate measurement.

I am still dreaming of going back to florida and when all other willpower fails me it keeps me going.

One last thing, I just have to say I was really hard on myself last weekend when I ran out of my smoothie supplies and I shouldn't have been. Because losing weight hasn't been about NOT eating, it has been about making better choices. And you just have to forgive yourself for not making the right choice sometimes. Because you can't stop eating altogether. And when it comes down to choosing between what is right and what is easy, that is always going to be hard.





 
 
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