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Diary of a Dying Heart
I find myself in a place I never thought I'd be in. When I was little I loved Cinderella. I'd run around the house singing songs from the Disney movie. I felt like I was her in a way, and I'd meet my prince and we'd live happily ever after. But what do you do when it doesn't end in happily ever after?...
What do you do if your prince gets taken away never to return?... That's something Disney might not ever answer for me... And it leaves me with even more questions. Like, "Was that all of the happiness I'll get to have? Or is there more that I can't see? Will I find somebody else? SHOULD I ever love anybody else?...."
One of my best friends had an interesting answer... She said I'll probably never LOOK for somebody else, but that somebody else will find me and convince me that it'd be okay to love again... That there IS more. I'm just too clouded with grief to see that...
My dad's first wife died early in their marriage... and a year later he met my mom. They've been married for twenty years now... and I just... a few months ago I knew what was going to happen in my life and now I have no idea...
I'm getting better. I smile almost as much as I used to. I don't cry every time I think of him.. I do cry sometimes but not EVERY time...
So let's see if Cinderella already had her happily ever after or if it has yet to come. Only time will tell I suppose.

xXAnomaleeXx
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  • User Comments: [2]
    July 3rd
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    Thu May 15, 2014 @ 08:01pm


    This is a lovely entry smilies/icon_3nodding.gif


    xXAnomaleeXx
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    Fri May 16, 2014 @ 12:44am


    I kept crying while I was typing it smilies/icon_sweatdrop.gif Cuz part of me wants to just stay how I am.. but then the part that's always advising people says no. You can't be stuck like this... I told you I was doing some serious thinking last night smilies/icon_sweatdrop.gif


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