This semester I really tried my best mentally, physically, and emotionally and I finally made a little progress. I started trying to show more of myself this semester instead of just shying away from people like I usually do. I became friends with..I'll just call him Cain on here. He was in most of my classes I had, and we saw each other alot because we had projects that we had to stay up at the school till the wee hours of the morning working on. He got a kick out of constantly bothering me and, soon enough, so did his friends and they constantly made me laugh.
I really didn't really start getting noticed by everyone else until I did an April Fool's prank last month. I was in the lab by myself at school working on a few projects, I then decided that now would be a good time to change all the computer wallpapers to random "uncomfortable" images off of google. I thoroughly LOVE pranking people, so I was already getting a huge lol out of it just imagining everyone's faces in the morning, I think it was like 2am when I did all this. The next day everyone was confused and laughing at the same time, and didn't even suspect me until Cain found out a few days later.
Soo..yeah a lot more things have happened this semester that have made me feel like I actually might be able to overcome my SA and gain a few social skills. I finally feel accomplished xD I even got a honors medal for making honor roll... But yeah.. the only thing that is keeping me from making really close friends is the part where I actually have to open up, and it is the hardest and I really don't know how to go about doing it, but I'm gonna try (I hope). I know I don't have as much time as everyone else, and the pain in my body is a constant reminder, but I also use that pain as my motivation sometimes. I don't mind going early, I just want to accomplish my goals before I kick the bucket xD. I just hope my health doesn't take a turn for the worst like it did 2 years ago >.>'
· Mon May 12, 2014 @ 06:03pm · 0 Comments