sad memories ; w ;
so i was looking through my email and deleting old messages to clear up space. apparently my email went back all the way to 4 or 5 years. back then i had a friend (internet friend of course), who was like, my best friend at the time ;O we were really close. and we used email to communicate with each other, and that was back in june and july of 2011. we arent friends anymore though. i think i slipped out of his memory and out of his life since its been so long. yeah... -sighs-
so guess what i decided to do to the emails he sent me. i saved them now, so i wont accidentally delete them and forget about them again. im gonna make myself all depressed with them, but oh well. DX
so ima go on and tell a sad story. true story btw. ; n ; i think i was 12 yrs old atm (15 now) and he was 21 atm. lol i know its a huge age difference but hey X'D age doesnt really matter =w= lol. so since we emailed each other a lot, i constantly checked my email for new messages and he did too. i used to stay up too, and then sneak out just to send him a message. did i mention he was on the other side of the globe? so the time zones were really different X'D lol. well anyways, sometimes my parents got a bit suspicious about me checking my email so often, and at one point, they logged into my email (they knew my password since they made it for me. i was young back then DX) and read my messages. invasion of privacy =n=; sheesh. and then they banned me from talking to him again. eventually i tried talking to him again after a year or something, but he kinda forgot me. but thats okay. i just got over it after a while so meh.
long story short, i had a best friend, and my parents took him away from me. and now hes gone, but its a nice memory to think back on i suppose. i wonder what wouldve happened if we were still friends to this day ;o ... but thats the past. ill forget it about it again and ill get over it. actually, i wont forget about it since i saved the messages. but i wont linger on it those memories too much. it wouldve been nice, if i couldve kept a good friend like that though. it wouldve been nice...
but like i said, it was so long ago. 3 yrs, in fact. ive gotten over it. but ill just think of it again, for now. so many things changed from then to now ;o
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